Do not let go ~ hand to

 Only 2 days out of the sun, and today it started to rain, cold and cold, as I'm feeling the same! Painful cold!
Idiot today I finally know 2 days before the reason for pulling me so cold, But now I'd rather not know, this will not happen now this thing. the original idiot has been so much a person suffering from stress, pain and helplessness, I did not find no problem, but also blame him for my cold 2 days before he was also sulking, I'm too much!!!
TO idiot:
QQ on the morning talk to you and me, when your feelings, I guess the results of the evening, guess you want to say. me and you the same kind of people, me and you still pretty heart have. One afternoon, I have not the Q, I cried all afternoon, because I guess the outcome, I'm afraid so scary ...
evening meal, you point a lot of the things I like to eat, but I have no appetite, I feel like the Last Supper. When I take it you buy a new camera phone, you refused, I the more determined I guess. dinner, we have been silent, in fact we all know each other are thinking. eat half of the time, tears, could not, I cried, I was much hope that you come hug I ...
After dinner, we went to the normal to the lawn (sky with rain, like us, after all the rain the weather out on a date). usually in front of me you do not smoke, but also then one of the smoking one, then the pain and helplessness, my heart hurts hurts. you can not be afraid to give me happiness, the present situation. I have no use crying brings a pull, but you still did not hold me, help me wipe the tears, even when I take the initiative to hold you while moving your hand a bit reflective, but still did not hold. I know and understand your intentions! you said something I really like , is: When faced with difficult to resolve. and then we have a very warm home, the family does not need a big, big, as long as we are old, he is also willing to hand my heart as a treasure !> Although I do not want to see you inside so painful struggle, but I am selfish because you do not want one do not want me to suffer with you to give you! Now Do not hand out to let each other! though your difficulty and I'm now temporarily can not help you, but I am willing to share with you the pain and helplessness you, at your side with you, holding your hand, maybe you would not be afraid!! no matter what the situation now, not to mention their not qualified, right? also do not let me go, okay? because really like, is not easily give up!! if you really like me!! Please forgive me a little selfish, it is because I really, really do not want to lose you!!!